Broke it off w/ my girlfriend tonight (or 3 1/2 hours before midnight). It's been building up for some time, but my cowardice dragged on the relationship longer than it should have. I thought with time deeper feelings would grow naturally and things would improve, but in the end I couldn't match her affection for me, and she deserves someone that would, could and should. Can't force these things.It was confusing for me to hear her say she sorta saw it coming but was "shocked" and "in disbelief" when I said the words. Still, I'm the breaker, not the breakee, so I let her voice out emotionally and otherwise. Pointing out her faults would've been, well, pointless. Whole thing took about an hour.
Further fallout will be dealt with, particularly w/ returning properties. The Sun cellphone goes back to her, as well as borrowed laptop and her paperback collection. But I told her she could keep the iPod, since it was a birthday gift, and the shirt Mom gave her.
And then there's Family. She still has a shirt deal w/ Boit, and possible sale of wholesale cloth for beddings w/ Evett. On my end I was supposed to make a DVD for her dad compiling the pictures of our trip to Batangas.
Billy Joel was right: Tell her about it. Tell her everything you feel. Otherwise you might end up quoting Michael Bolton (and who the hell wants that): Said I loved you, but I lied.
Advance apologies to Dee, KV, Rons and 'Sen. Guess you won't get to meet her after all. Guess I'm attending that Puerto Prinsesa wedding solo, relatively speaking. More "Me" time. Whee.
UPDATE: We agreed to still be friends.
