Feeling blue at the moment. Not sure if it's over a girl or what I think her current impression of me. Our last conversation was filled with laughter, but her was almost nervous in nature. Her words half-serious, half not so. Don't encourage him. Try to let him down gently but don't be direct in case he's just kidding. Hope to God he's don't be dense.
And there was this other girl. Her messages to me used to end in those smiley typographs (:)). Now when I slowly let my guard down (possibly misinterpreting her friendly nature as something... more), the :)'s have disappeared. Maybe it's nothing. Maybe not.
This always happens, and I always blame myself. It's almost like the improved me is just like the old. Am I coming on too strong? Too weird? Am I reading too much into all this? I enjoy friendly flirting. The problem lies with what happens when you want to be serious about it afterwards. I hate this not knowing feeling. The again, I'm not the Sun. The world does not revolve around me. Nor am I a mindreader. My cousin has cautioned be about trying to be more senstitive to other people's feelings, but this is different.
I used to think I have a good vibe for things like this, when someone I like doesn't or no longer feels the same way, but I hate going by vibes. It's so...irrational. Of course the direct approach--just asking the person-- is the simplest and hardest solution at the same time.
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